More hero motifs

thinking about hero motifs in my life/writing/etc. and just found this journal entry from April 8, 2005 entitled “I’m Tired”

I’m tired, ok? I’m tired of hiding and tired of chasing. Tired of humans who walk the earth mouthing messages of freedom, love and joy but unable to apply those principals to those around them. Tired of watching love take a backseat when it interferes with personal gain and fear. Do you understand that you’re not helping? You’re making us more afraid and lowering the standards for everyone. I’ve said it before and I will until I die, until someone hears me: I want to live among warriors. Can someone point me the way? I walk out my door, armed with hours of meditation and thought loops reprogrammed to help me believe – to perceive – that with a little forgiveness, our shabby cowardly lion suits will fall away and each of us will emerge as a true samurai: jeweled sword, topknot and all. The truth IS. We know that. So why do we fight? Why do we hurt each other? Our movies don’t match. Can it be that simple?

Don’t misunderstand me, please. I am no better than any of you. We’re all tired. But I can’t sleep anymore. That’s the difference. I want to love again. And I’m afraid I’ve fogotten how.

Tagged as: Hero(ine)s, samurai, writing